A few years ago, I chose to be a stay at home mom. I left a career to be with my kiddos full time, and never once looked back. There are days after I made the choice, that I would feel empty. There are only so many times you can vacuum the living room or polish the bathroom sink. My husband would get home from work, and I would wait for him to tell me how amazing the house looked or how great dinner was. For a while, I was content with that being the only approval I got. I spent my days checking homework and reading books with the children. I was pregnant with youngest, so I knew it was not going to get easier. I also knew that going back to work was not in my foreseeable future. Eventually, craft time and chores left me feeling empty. I felt like I lost myself somewhere along the way. I was the kiddo's mommy, and my hubby's wife. I didn't feel like me. I didn't like how it felt.
I am not saying that I did not love being a mom or a wife, I loved it. Spending time with my children was, and is the highlight of each and every day. Unlike most parents who dread summer, I welcome it, because my kids are home full time. I simply needed more fulfillment for myself. Dinnertime would come, and the kids would talk about their day. My husband would talk about work. I had nothing. It made me feel so left out. I don't have a way to explain it, other than that really.
That is how I started this. Nonperfect Parenting was born out of a necessity to find my voice again. I needed somewhere to not just be a mommy, or a wife, but to do what I am good at...being me. I am still able to be a stay at home mom, but now I have a way to express myself and have an outlet. I still spend my days reading with children or playing blocks. Now my floors aren't nearly as clean and my bathroom hasn't been polished in months. I am happier because I have found something I enjoy and I love. I suppose the point of all of this is, even if you are a SAHM, you must find an outlet for yourself. Don't lose yourself and only be a mommy or a wife. It is important to still be that individual you were before the chaos of a family happened. It helps you to cope with it daily.